Tuesday, September 23, 2003

I had a dream last night that was very interesting to me. It must have been many dreams but it seems to me to be one dream. Only points of the dream remain with me. I have a reoccurring place I go in many dreams. This place is access to the ocean from a non-traditional location. It is accessed through a path that winds through a farmed field but over time this path changes. Sometimes the field is harvested and sometimes bare. Last night it was developed with various businesses. Each business seemed to be blocking my way with a chain linked fence. In each fence was a dog or two who although there were not barking or being mean they deterred me from continuing on the path to the ocean. I have been down the path before and would like to get to the ocean because it is a beautiful spot. The ocean comes in strong but the beach is flat and it makes the waves dramatic as they come ashore. There are a few rock and tree stumps here too. The water is clean however; a greenish blue. I do not find away around the dogs before my alarm.

Earlier I was told at the location I was staying some of the other friends staying there was down at the ocean at the beautiful spot so I had gone looking for them. I was engaged in a strange conversation with a guy I used to work with. He was testing me first seeking some sympathy and then tried to use my compassion for something else. So I had to end the conversation.

Earlier I was at my house and my gym teacher Lisa was at my door with several other girls and they all had babies they wanted me to watch the babies while they went swimming. I was pushed into this situation and I had never met these women or these babies before. They were convinced I could handle it. I was then confronted with what did these women know about my capabilities and me.

Earlier I was attending a funeral with my family. Well it actually was the time before the funeral and the funeral home had sent over some new space age Cadillacs for us to ride in. I needed to go somewhere and my mother suggested I take one of the Cadillacs.