It's Hot Here
It's hot here at work. At many moments during the day I wondered if was to survive. I will not have another chance to do this day over. I know there is middle ground but my mind is out of control. I have not had a sitting meditation in a few days and I have been allowing myself too much news. Today I sweated all day long. I am headed home for a bath. I have company coming by. This will help to decompress this week. Tomorrow is another day. I hope to find peace in the garden.
Friday, May 20, 2005
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
To Do Something Else
I'm dealing with a dilemma. I have only two more days left in my gym membership and I don't think it is in my best interest to renew. I think I can save that money but I will miss my lunchtime workouts. Gym workouts seem to clash with yoga practice. I really enjoy yoga practice and the gym, especially the gym I go to now, is not so fun. Only thing I know my gym worklouts keeps my weight down. So I will have to do something else. I think I will do some cost analysis of gyms that are local to home and maybe workout in the evenings and weekends. Maybe try and find a gym that has yoga. Nah, that is silly. What a dilemma?
I'm dealing with a dilemma. I have only two more days left in my gym membership and I don't think it is in my best interest to renew. I think I can save that money but I will miss my lunchtime workouts. Gym workouts seem to clash with yoga practice. I really enjoy yoga practice and the gym, especially the gym I go to now, is not so fun. Only thing I know my gym worklouts keeps my weight down. So I will have to do something else. I think I will do some cost analysis of gyms that are local to home and maybe workout in the evenings and weekends. Maybe try and find a gym that has yoga. Nah, that is silly. What a dilemma?
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Vital to Buddhist Practice
I have had a lot of opportunities lately to do some activities related to spirituality. Some of these events have been book readings, meditation trainings and retreats. I find I would initially have interest but the interest would wane as the event neared and I would not go. I rationalize not attending by saying I do not have the time, money or energy after a long workday. The truth is that the commitment to an event seems to bring up feelings of attachment. After I have done so much work to let go of attachments, I don’t want to mess up what I have accomplished. Then I ponder that I have neglected building or joining a sangha that is vital to Buddhist practice. I fear the building of new relationships will take time away from my practice. I have to trust that my truth will work its way out.
I have had a lot of opportunities lately to do some activities related to spirituality. Some of these events have been book readings, meditation trainings and retreats. I find I would initially have interest but the interest would wane as the event neared and I would not go. I rationalize not attending by saying I do not have the time, money or energy after a long workday. The truth is that the commitment to an event seems to bring up feelings of attachment. After I have done so much work to let go of attachments, I don’t want to mess up what I have accomplished. Then I ponder that I have neglected building or joining a sangha that is vital to Buddhist practice. I fear the building of new relationships will take time away from my practice. I have to trust that my truth will work its way out.