Ongoing Concern

I am worried about my time left on earth. I guess "worried" is not the correct word to use. I am hard pressed for the correct word. The feeling I have is concern that although I am relatively happy, I am immersed in a world that always wants to make things better. Unfortunately, those things are not my wisdom or consciousness but material things. I know I have made progress in letting go of material things but I pause to take further steps that could continue to remove me from material influences. When I look at my job and how much time it takes of my day, I get discouraged. I often wonder if I have the ability to really change or do more for myself or other people. I know the pull of my past experiences continue to influence me and take me away from the present moment. I must forgive myself and accept the present. The struggle I feel is doing so may aid in a shorter life for me.